I had the latest video all but done, and accidentally deleted the whole thing. I complained to my homie for a bit and then made a pot of coffee and stayed up all night to edit it all over again from scratch. That video has negative subscribers now lol. I swear if that don't make you wanna quit nothing will lol.
It almost feels like when someone likes fabricating and wheeling so they work for themselves but then can no longer go wheeling or work on their own junk. If I watch YT it's usually for learning, rarely pleasure. I choose not to watch any of the off road folks that I used to. I have no idea what they're up to and I don't want it to influence my own channel in any way.
So then we are mentioned in some 4x4 games thing in Hurricane, I go look it up and see a bunch goofy stuff, people trashing rigs and none other than the Lite Brite girl in front of all these kids and families. Meanwhile all her stuff points to her Only Fans. I guess I just find it shocking that it's become so normal to essentially glorify this "porn star" in what I have generally seen as a family sport and core audience.
I find myself asking if I even want to play in this space anymore. I genuinely just like to go wheeling with a few new folks along the way and make a cool video story. So I'm feeling this way, and haven't really looked at my phone all morning only to pick it up and find private messages from people as well as comments of folks saying how glad they are to see us making videos again. I appreciate the encouragement more than they will ever know. That goes for all 2 of you here as well, I really appreciate it